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(Greg Tamblyn)

I was worried about not writing any songs
No words, no tunes, nothing for way too long
I was worried I’d never write again
Maybe there was no more ink in my pen
And then I thought about that, and I began to feel ashamed

I was ashamed that I’d been worried about not writing
I’d been through droughts before and come out fighting
Seemed like my worry was out of control
And I was ashamed about it down to my soul
Then it hit me what I was doing, and I started feeling guilty

I was guilty that I could let myself feel shame
Over something so insignificant as this writing game
I thought I’d released that stuff long ago
And I felt guilty that I had such a long way to go
And then I realized what I was doing, and I got embarrassed

I was embarrassed that my shame could make me feel guilty
All these negative thought patterns, man, it was silly
If someone could see inside my head
They’d give a drug and put me to bed
Yeah, I was embarrassed, and that made me mad

I was angry that I could be so immature
I was angry at me, I was down on myself for sure
And as my anger turned into resentment
I thought about what the long term effects of that meant
And I realized what I was doing to my body, and I felt afraid

I was afraid of what I was doing to myself
All these negative emotions affecting my health
If body and mind are so interconnected
My shame, guilt, worry, and fear were making me infected
And I was afraid that I was becoming depressed

And as I began to sink into depression
The effect on my body and mind became an obsession
The outcome of this could not be in doubt
And that gave me something new to worry about
I knew that I might not be around for too long
So I wrote it all down and I had a new song
And when I thought about that, I was fine again

© 1999 Ramblin’ Tamblyn Music, BMI